blue eyes and dimpled smile...

< - slowly- becoming - so - much - more - than - what - was- before - >

lonley and confused and remembering and wanting and wishing and so much more...

i may regret this entry tomorrow but hey... thats tomorrow.

it`s early morning here.

finished work, had a few drinks with some mates.

came home to cook somethig to eat.

watched a little telly. played gutiar for a while. then checked my diary.

i`m sitting here thinking to myself like so many, many, many nights before.

i love my life at the moment.

i`ve experienced things that i would never trade for anything.

i done things that i never thought were possible of me.

but as i sit here alone i hadn`t felt this emptiness for a long time.

there is no gorgeous girl that i love lying in my bed as she use to.

there will be now soft breaths across the back of my neck as i sleep tonight.

no one to hold and cuddle and feel there heart beat against mine in my bed.

just me and the cool summe breeze across my body.

there will be no blurry eyed i love you`s in the early morning light like before.

and i feel alone for that.

so....

to anyone that reads or cares to listen to my little tale.

please take head to these words.

there is nothing....

absolutley nothing in the entire universe that comes even close to being as good as waking up in the arms of someone you love.

nothing.

i would give all my tomorrows for one morning with someone i love, that loves me back.

because it doesn`t get any better than that beautiful feeling.

and i`m scared that i may never feel that ever again.

sometimes i still miss her so much.

so fucking much.