blue eyes and dimpled smile...

< - slowly- becoming - so - much - more - than - what - was- before - >

baby step and progression of time.

this is why i`m here.

if you all wanted the brief version of why i`m so fucked up, here it is.

this is my progression of pain.

version 1 "paper pages, watching storms"

start

goodnight

sleep

alone

reflection

hands

colours

when you were

warning

pretending

forever

non victus

progression

character building

clarity?

bitter sweet

sparkle

rain

what do i want

symptoms

your colours

slowly giving up

tequilla

i love i hate

constant

moving

letting go

path1

strong

broken

over her?

can`t

path3

enough

you know

mgf

this is it

resolution

version 2 "secondhand book shops"

v.2 scared

v.2 colourless

v.2 gorechi 1

v.2 gorechi 2

v.2 tear drop

v.2 wearing out

v.2 roses

v.2 this is us

v.2 betterman

v.2 nothing anymore

v.2 from those that hope

v.2 from those that love

v.2 goodbye

v.2 fuck valentines

v.2 drowning

v.2 new home

v.2 ouch

v.2 in need of armour

version 3 "foregin shores"

v.3 wolves

v.3 faded grasp

v.3 my father

v.3 our shirt

v.3 outside the fire

v.3 internal bleeding 1

v.3 crushed like paper

v.3 internal bleeding 2

v.3 picture

v.3 trouble breathing

v.3 its not your fault

v.3 on debut

v.3 feel it yet

v.3 crash

v.3 that song is in my veins

v.3 my photo

version 4 "crawl, walk, run, fall"

v.3 dark horse

v.4 past

v.4 that something

v.4 step 1

v.4 step 2

v.4 step 3

v.4 step 4

v.4 step 5

v.4 step 6

v.4 step 7

v.4 step 8

v.4 step 9

v.4 step 10

she is still the tear that hangs inside my soul forever.

i know that very few people who read these diaries know the full story. maybe this will help them understand mine a little better.

...is all i have to give